the quality of the pancakes

modern anxiety

When we self-diagnose, we look for control factors. Sometimes we invent them. The goal of solipsistic anxiety is to find an individual agent that explains our misery. We eliminate possibilities one-by-one in hopes that a single cause remains. This is how people deduce food allergies and come to workable morning routines (no to coffee, yes to tea; don’t transfer trains, walk the extra eight blocks instead). It’s frustrating when changes in lifestyle are not singular but rather come in waves, making it harder to identify and explain away the sole source of pain. We prefer that our personal problems not be overdetermined.

- Alice Gregory, Sad As Hell

This is the first paragraph of the article, though I have reason to quote the entire thing. The author is referring specifically to twenty somethings, but I feel every point at a late thirty-three.

These are my problems, our problems, and they will likely die out with our generation.